Note To Self

"only you can determine the moments that define you"

~Katie Hnida

Our lives are affected by what happens, but NOT controlled by it.
In the turbulent world in which we live we hear so much about how people are affected by life and their situations. Good and Bad. And it is easy to blame others. But at some point we have to say...I am who I am. And I will be me no matter what. We have to be strong enough to change for our own good. Strong enough to say what we like about ourselves. And strong enough to stand up and acknowledge our own self worth.

How can we invoke change if we hate who we see in the mirror?

I choose each day to look at myself and say I am Laura. I am a strong, confident, beautiful mother. I believe that I am great b/c of the One in me grows me to be greater than myself. I am able to do more in my life than I expect. I am able to mold and shape the lives I have been entrusted with. I am able to love and live with out fear. I am willing to lift up and not tear down. And I will start with me. I will allow God to mold me even if it hurts. I will allow Him to change what I need to change w/o wondering if someone else will like me for it. I am shaped by my life, by my experiences, by my past, and even by my future. BUT I will not allow it to shape me into the grotesque. I will acknowledge what God wishes for me to learn in the grotesque and allow it to shape me for.... Good. Faith. Hope. And most importantly love.

Still the raging storm....

When I think I'm going under
Part the Waters, Lord

When I feel the waves surround me
Calm the seas
When I cry for help
O Hear me Lord
And Hold out YOUR hand
Touch my life, Still the raging storm in me.

Lord, Still the raging heart.

Show me the peace the passes all understanding.

You alone. Are what I need.