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Chosen Of Mine

Here I am so close to you
Know My voice, I'll never leave you
For I have loved you since before
The sands of time were made

I love you still and always will
You're chosen as Mine
My Father wants to bless you now
Receive from Him all that you'll ever need
Come spend eternity with Me
My heart's full of love for you

I love you still and always will
You're chosen as Mine
Cries in the desert, My child I hear them
Tears in the valley, My lovely I count them
You're so precious, you were on My mind as
I died
Here I am so close to you
Know My voice, I'll never leave you
For I have loved you since before
The sands of time were made
I love you still and always will
You're chosen as Mine
Cries in the desert, My child, I hear them
Tears in the valley, My lovely, I count them
You're so precious, you were on My mind as
I died

I love you, as I died for you,
because I love you still, always will
You're chosen as Mine
I love you, I love you

by Joanna Haverkamp...Hill Songs

TwistedTogether-

A wise man once said "Take your circumstances and God's Character and twist them together"

And when things are going great it is easy to do. But when things are a mess and you are tired of cleaning it up. You seem to forget or think your circumstance are to big for God's Character to cover. Was His Character not big enough to cover Jacob, Abraham or David? What about Ruth, Peter or Paul? Or Jesus. Who was God's Character living, dying and raised. Raised! No mis-placed body, No "He just walked away". RAISED. Was dead.. NOW Alive.

And so my circumstances in comparison are a bit smaller. And yet they're not. Not to Him. His Daughter needs protection and His Character is all over it.

He is My Shield
He is My Refuge
He is Gracious
He is ever-present even when I forget
He is Peace
He is Jealous. For me. NOT of me. But for me. My dad that protects me. That showers me with love. That reigns me in with discipline. That sings to my soul. That dances with my spirit. And provides my portion and my cup.

His Character twisted with my circumstance is enough. And each day He reveals more and more of the path that has been laid before me. And the fog is clearing. And the rain is letting up. And I realize I was never alone in the woods with the fog and the rain running from the wolves. I am walking thru the woods, Holding His hand. As He shows me the way. I can hear the wolves howling. I can feel the rain on my face. BUT. My Father is protecting me..every step to the meadow.

Note to Self

Trust and Faith go hand in hand. They are even similar in their descriptions. They can not be separated. Even though some will only have faith if there is perfection in this world and all goes their way... we as Jesus Lovers have faith and trust in the middle of turmoil b/c we look to God and His Sovereignty.

Note To Self

Get in touch with your most sincere Self, unconditioned by the world. Then operate every single moment in your life from this core of who you really are. Never say or do anything that isn't bless by this instinctive purpose.

Note To Self

"only you can determine the moments that define you"

~Katie Hnida

Our lives are affected by what happens, but NOT controlled by it.
In the turbulent world in which we live we hear so much about how people are affected by life and their situations. Good and Bad. And it is easy to blame others. But at some point we have to say...I am who I am. And I will be me no matter what. We have to be strong enough to change for our own good. Strong enough to say what we like about ourselves. And strong enough to stand up and acknowledge our own self worth.

How can we invoke change if we hate who we see in the mirror?

I choose each day to look at myself and say I am Laura. I am a strong, confident, beautiful mother. I believe that I am great b/c of the One in me grows me to be greater than myself. I am able to do more in my life than I expect. I am able to mold and shape the lives I have been entrusted with. I am able to love and live with out fear. I am willing to lift up and not tear down. And I will start with me. I will allow God to mold me even if it hurts. I will allow Him to change what I need to change w/o wondering if someone else will like me for it. I am shaped by my life, by my experiences, by my past, and even by my future. BUT I will not allow it to shape me into the grotesque. I will acknowledge what God wishes for me to learn in the grotesque and allow it to shape me for.... Good. Faith. Hope. And most importantly love.

Still the raging storm....

When I think I'm going under
Part the Waters, Lord

When I feel the waves surround me
Calm the seas
When I cry for help
O Hear me Lord
And Hold out YOUR hand
Touch my life, Still the raging storm in me.

Lord, Still the raging heart.

Show me the peace the passes all understanding.

You alone. Are what I need.

Psalm 71
In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame.

Rescue me and deliver me in your righteousness;
turn your ear to me and save me.

Be my rock of refuge,
to which I can always go;
give the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.

Deliver me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked,
from the grasp of evil and cruel men.

For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD,
my confidence since my youth.

From birth I have relied on you;
you brought me forth from my mother's womb.
I will ever praise you.

I have become like a portent to many,
but you are my strong refuge.

My mouth is filled with your praise,
declaring your splendor all day long.

Do not cast me away when I am old;
do not forsake me when my strength is gone.

For my enemies speak against me;
those who wait to kill me conspire together.

They say, "God has forsaken him;
pursue him and seize him,
for no one will rescue him."

Be not far from me, O God;
come quickly, O my God, to help me.

May my accusers perish in shame;
may those who want to harm me
be covered with scorn and disgrace.

But as for me, I will always have hope;
I will praise you more and more.

My mouth will tell of your righteousness,
of your salvation all day long,
though I know not its measure.

I will come and proclaim your mighty acts, O Sovereign LORD;
I will proclaim your righteousness, yours alone.

Since my youth, O God, you have taught me,
and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds.

Even when I am old and gray,
do not forsake me, O God,
till I declare your power to the next generation,
your might to all who are to come.

Your righteousness reaches to the skies, O God,
you who have done great things.
Who, O God, is like you?

Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.

You will increase my honor
and comfort me once again.

I will praise you with the harp
for your faithfulness, O my God;
I will sing praise to you with the lyre,
O Holy One of Israel.

My lips will shout for joy
when I sing praise to you—
I, whom you have redeemed.

My tongue will tell of your righteous acts
all day long,
for those who wanted to harm me
have been put to shame and confusion.

Love must look away

Time wears away
All the pleasure of the day
All the treasures you could hold
Days turn to sand
Losing strength in every hand
They can't hold you anymore

Already dead to me now
Cuz it feels like I'm watching something die

Love looks away
In the harsh light of the day
on the edge of nothing more
Days fade to balck
In the light of what they lack
Nothing's measured by what it needs

Already dead to me now
Cuz it feels like I'm watching something die

If only the love that has lost saw what was to be
Could it have changed what the heart dreamed it wanted to see
Seen only as dark light to those around
All I could do was see the love that could be found
No emotion can be felt thru the nothingness of the words
Is that the truth that is plain to all but me

Already dead to me now
Cuz it feels like I'm watching something die

My head knows what the heart want
And yet denies it all for the presence of life
It can not be no matter how much it hurts
I will have to learn to live without
What I thought was true love at last
How could I have known it was a mere repeat. ..

of the past

So Love must look away to keep itself safe
To bad it did not see what must and has to be
The heart longs to love and longs to be free

Already dead to me now
Cuz it feels like I'm watching something die



Half Beck...Half Me. ....

Switch o' Change o' Rearrange o'

There is a song that I have heard that I can't get out of my head.. so.. Here is what I have been thinking on..for awhile. ....


He lowers us to raise us
So we can sing His praises
Whatever is His way all is well

He makes us rich and poor
That we might trust Him more
Whatever is His way all is well

All my changes come from Him He who never changes
I am held firm in the grasp of the Rock of all the ages

All is well with my soul
He is God in Control
I know not all His plans
But I know I'm in His hands

He clothes us now then strips us
Yet with His Word equips us
Whatever is His way all is well
And though our seasons change
We still exalt His name
Whatever is His way all is well

All is well with my soul
He is God in control
I know not all His plans
But I know I'm in His hands


By Robin Mark

Hear My Cry.

Vindicate me, O God,
and plead my cause against an ungodly nation;
rescue me from deceitful and wicked men.
You are God my stronghold.
Why have you rejected me?
Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by my enemy?
Send forth your light and your truth, let them guide me;
let them bring me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell.
Then will I go to the altar of God, To God, my joy and my delight.
I will praise you with harp, O God, my God.
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him,
My Savior and My God!

Note to self- Unlimited Forgiveness

A response I do not want to forget about unlimited forgiveness....


"You seem to have a lot of energy to talk to me about honoring God by forgiving you. I'm curious what it would look like for you to honor God in the area that keeps requiring me to forgive you? At some point your behavior is no longer a test for me but a test for you, as a Believer, to see if your life backs up what you profess. Instead of focusing on the reaction how about a little focus on the cause? Otherwise you spend your life/relationship managing consequences but never changing behavior."

1 John 4:1-21

Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.
We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.

Poor Morgan LeFay

R.I.P.
Here lies Morgan LeFay.
She did not know what to say.
She says she tries to complete or her stuff
But her teachers are just way way to rough
So she just waits and waits to turn in her work
I am sure she thinks her mom is a jerk
B/c she is grounded until the coming of Christ
Or until those numbers reach new heights
For even though she can read all night
Her biology and geography is no where in site!
But will change you can bet your last dollar
B/c I don't care how much she hoops and hollers
She will bring home her work before the sun goes down
I am sure you will think I am a hound
For making her face the fact
We are not going to put up with our daughters laxed!

Dear Sweet Jon Ryan

R.I.P.
Here Lies Jonathan Ry-an
He always is just a ly-in'
About the work he has to do.
He thinks his daddy don't have a clue
He had lunch detention due to his lack
And just wishes that teacher would give him some slack
Although he has time to sit and frenzy long
He will not see that wii until his hair is gone
No matter how hard he tries and how long he cries
He will not see the sun before he dies
B/c the mean old momma has let the hammer fall
The homework will be done before I have to call
All those teachers in to one room
And they can tell me all doom and gloom
Just bring home your work so you don't get in trouble
Get your back up straight before the grounding is double!

Blasphemy.

Note to Self

"Death Cannot Kill What Never Dies"

Tea Party Speech....

Do you feel like we are in the 60's again. Except instead of FREE love and No war we are on the opposite side of the fence?!?

I got this from my extreme right wing dad. HA. Who normally I won't talk politics with. But lately ...although extreme..he is making some sense.

This is long but worth the read!

I share this because it is important that we know and understand what is happening to our great nation, which is currently going under.

Please read carefully..

TEA Party in Lubbock,TX At the TEA PARTY, Dr. Donald May, (an 'African American') delivered this message from the courthouse steps in Lubbock. He electrified the audience like I haven't seen in a long time. His delivery was masterful. I am sorry you could not see him in action. Anyway, I thought you might enjoy his words. The news media was there, but not one word of this man's appearance ever appeared on TV or in print, even though he completely dominated the scene.

This is A Time For Courage
April 15, 2009 - 11:49 pm

Ladies and gentlemen, This is a Time For Courage. We are gathered here today on the Plains of West Texas in common purpose. We are here to remind our government that this is our country. We the People are still in charge, and our government is still our servant and not our master.
Our Nation's founding document is The Declaration of Independence ... It tells us that our rights come from God and not from a small group of Elite men and women.
Our Constitution starts with the words "We the People." Our Constitution was written for ordinary Americans like you and me. Our Constitution protects us from our government and from the politicians.
Our President has complained that our Constitution gives ordinary people too much protection. He has ridiculed us for the high value we place on our Bibles, our guns, our personal property, and our Liberty .. He tells us we do not deserve to keep the money we haveearned. We are told freedom has not worked. Personal responsibility, free enterprise, and Liberty have not been effective. Our government will now make more of our decisions for us. Other than our military, I can think of not one government agency I have ever found to be helpful. And speaking of our military, how about those Navy Seals blowing the heads off those three terrorist pirates? Don't you just wish our entire government would function with such efficiency, professionalism, and courage?
We watch in disbelief as our beloved United States is weakened economically, militarily, and morally by a Radical President and his eager accomplices. What has taken generations to build is systematically destroyed and replaced with the same Socialist Evil that brought poverty, destruction, and despair to untold hundreds of millions. The problems we face today have occurred because we have not defended our Nation from Socialism. For too long we have allowed the wrong people to make the worst possible decisions..
The Bible warns us of class hatred. The Radical leadership of our government daily fans the evil flames of class envy. Our European and Canadian friends beg us to not make the same Socialist mistakes they did.
The President of the European Union warned our President that his Socialist economic plans are taking the World down the "road to Hell." The path to power for Socialists includes taking God and guns from the citizens. Without spiritual and physical protection, people cannot defend themselves and their Liberty . They soon become slaves. We are angered that our President apologizes for the exceptionalism and heroism of the United States of America . We are deeply troubled that he told others the United States is not a Christian nation. We are angered that we have been called cowards and racists because we oppose Socialism.
Socialism is not racial.
Socialism is an equal opportunity destroyer.
We are angered that a recent Department of Homeland Security report has singled out our military men and women who are returning home as being radical threats. The report also characterizes you and me as right-wing extremists and radicals because we favor smaller government and lower taxes.
You and I are average citizens who believe just like most of our fellow Americans. We want our government to leave us alone and to keep its hands off our money, our religion, or guns, our private property, and our lives. We demand that our government stop spending money it does not have.
Stop confiscating our money and private property.
Stop printing money.
Stop subsidizing Fannie Mae, Freddie Mac, and the other failed financial institutions and companies.
Mr.President, stop appointing tax cheats to positions of power and influence.
Mr. President, secure our borders.
Mr. President, do not divert money from our missile defense, F-22 Raptors, and other vital military equipment. This gives encouragement, aid, and comfort to our enemies. Protecting us is your number one job.
Mr. President, do not give voting rights to millions of illegal aliens and felons. You have no more right to create new voters for your benefit than you do to use our money to buy the 2010 and 2012 Elections.
We gather peacefully here today because there is a growing concern for what our government is doing to us and to our future. We fear for the very survival of our Republic. Yet there is much to make us hopeful and to fill our hearts with optimism and courage.
This is still our country!
The Constitution of the Unites States belongs to We the People.. Our Constitution still protects us from our government. Call every possible elected official, including our President, Vice President, and the Speaker of the House. Demand that they stop stealing our money and giving it to ACORN and their other political supporters in order to buy votes. Call Senators Cornyn and Hutchison, and Representative Neugebauer. Thank them. Urge them to do much more. Remind them now is a time for action and not for campaigning. Volunteer to work on our 2010 Census. Confront ACORN.
Keep our Census honest... We must not allow our President to take control of our Census for his political advantage.
We must replace as much of our Far Left Congress as possible in 2010.
Get involved... Do not let the ACORN control our 2010 Election.
Talk with someone every day who does not understand our nation's history and our great heritage. Tell them why the United States is a good and prosperous nation. It still remains that brightly lit city on the hill. It still is the best hope for all mankind. Talk with all of the young people you can find. They are our future. Many do not understand what they have and that their future is being destroyed.
Encourage your elected State officials to pass legislation that will protect us from our Federal government. This is a time for strong peaceful action. Let us pray that We the People can quickly return our government to its Constitutional responsibilities.
Our President and Congress were elected to be our servants and not our masters.
May God help our President and Congress to quickly realize the error of their ways and stop their reckless and unwarranted spending, cut our taxes, and reduce the size of our Federal> bureaucracy.
If they do not, may God grant us the courage and determination to vote them out of power next year.
May God richly bless and protect each of you, and our Constitution, as together we pursue Liberty !

Delivered at the Lubbock , Texas , TEA Party by Dr. Donald May



The democracy will cease to exist when you take away from those who are willing to work and give to those who would not. Thomas Jefferson

Frenzy!

A man's man.

An all man man.

An "A" typical man's man.

What are they?

They love fishing.

They love hunting.

They love golfing.

They watch crazy shows on tv.

They are in the ranks of great people like....

Like...

James Murray.

Like..

Phillip 'buckwheat' Miller.

Like..

Jonathan 'catchfish' Beadle. (aka. Golfpro, BowAce, McGiver Jr.)

Yes yes. I know. Famous one and all.

The day leading up to the unofficial Father's day is a bit crazy. The preparations being made as we speak to make sure his rod and reel are up to specs has left my oldest son in a frenzy.

He left his ALL powerful ALL wonderful rod and reel at his Grandparent's lake house. And the fear that he would have to use HIS BROTHER'S mediocre pole has sent him into hysterics.

He can't stand the fact that he is poleless. He has his gear all in check. Told me to make sure to ask the all powerful Master Yoda Murray what bait his mother needs to spring for.

He wants to make sure his cap is clean and ready for his clean cut little head. He is getting his favorite fishing shirt out. And has already gotten his chair, gear and all things fishing ready and waiting at the door.

He is "the most intersting man on the planet"..

Ok Maybe not.

More like He is "The future hunter/fisher/golfer Man's Man"

He is Jonathan Ryan. And he loves him some fishing!!! And turkey sandwiches.

Note to self

"Sometimes the hardest thing to do is to continue to doing the right thing."


~Neil McClendon



It is easier to take the easy way out. It is easier to not stand up for what is right.
It is easier to forget. It is easier to slide back into bad or old behavior. It is not easy to do the right thing. It takes work and it is not fun nor does it make you popular. **sigh**